when life meets reality...


mysterious encounters r déjà vu r serendipity moments r mistakes r opportunities r

to forgive and forget r awkward silences r laughter r joyful tears r love r hopeful comings

** “Story #'s” **

posts that focus on the major movements of my life. They are the stories that make up the journey: When life meets reality.

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Story #57: um...

Famous or not, men are...men. Don't roll your eyes at my simplistic yet very profound sentence, I really mean what I say. So what could I possible mean when I say men are men? Well, 1) some men, honestly just creep me out...either those creepy ones that hollar at you while you're walking by (actually it's the ones that stare that really gets to me), or...the ones you thought you were just being friendly and networking with but in actuality, it just turns out to be an old creep that seems to be looking for something more. Although I'm an adult, it almost feels like pedophilia. Maybe I'm just paranoid and making assumptions, but I gotta trust my gut instincts. It starts out as just talking, then flirtation, the grabbing on to the arm in a friendly way, then grabbing on to my hand. 2) All the ones I want I can't have and all the ones I don't want...bleh, you get the picture. It's like shoes or clothes. It doesn't matter how much you own, you can never find the right one.

Moving on, Blue Bloods was so much fun to work on yesterday. I love everyone working on set. I made friends with a few PA's, AD's, lead/main principal characters, and background actors. I learned a lot from the advice given by more experienced actors and I made connections with higher grounds that might allow me to get more jobs on Blue Bloods from now on. This means that I have to work even harder now to keep a good impression and to hopefully make a name for myself.

Today I had an audition. I'm not exactly sure of the specific details, but what they're ultimately doing sounds super cool. After narrowing down what they want in terms of who, what looks, hairstyles and clothing styles, they will take a 360 degree video/screen shots to make a 3D image. This way they can just use that image where ever and whenever they want. It sounded better when they described it but still...SO COOL!

So now I'm just waiting to hear back. If I get it, I will work both Friday and next Tuesday. If I don't get it, I will be working on Blue Bloods on Friday! :)

More updates to come! (I will be updating my "Friends on Set" facebook album shortly)
Mucho <3

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Making a Change...

...because doing good is contagious - The Jubilee Project

I figure you all know about Hurricane Irene, you guys are following it and some are even experiencing it right now. So, how about I talk about something else and maybe even give you something to do on these next couple of rainy days. I promise, it will be worth your while to watch. Who knows, maybe you'll be inspired! ;)

With this post, I wanted to share how one incredible idea can transform into a worldwide pay it forward movement. The Jubilee Project was made in large by the three musketeers, Jason, Eddie and Eric. They found a way to captivate  attention through the viral video community, knowledge and the kindness of people to launch a movement for change.  Now, more so than ever, with the use of 3G and 4G networks we are able to stay connected to the internet where ever and whenever we want through laptops, tablets and cellular phones. These entertaining videos "inspire, enable and empower others to do good as well." They have touched on subjects that bring awareness to HIV/Aids, Hep B, ♥ for Japan, maternal health, hearing impaired, North Korean Refugees...and raise money for  organizations such as, World Vision Japan, Every Mother Counts, ASDC (American Society for Deaf Children), and LiNK. Although you can find all of their incredible videos here: http://www.youtube.com/JubileeProject. I picked out a few of my many favorites:







Through “active viewership,” The Jubilee Project has raised over $23,000 for 11 non-profit organizations. Even if donations aren’t your thing, you can help by sharing their videos and website or buying a shirt from their store.

Get in contact, stay in touch, be involved. Here's how:

Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/jubileeproject
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/jubileeproject
Website: http://www.jubileeproject.org
Store: http://www.jubileeproject.bigcartel.com
Email: project.jubilee@gmail.com 

Stay dry and stay safe. More updates to come!
Mucho <3

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Story #56: ...funny story...

The noun Funny Story has 1 sense:
1. an account of an amusing incident (usually with a punch line)
  Familiarity information: Funny story used as a noun is very rare.
~ Thanks to AudioEnglish.net

So...funny story about Hell's Kitchen...okay, it's not really story, nor is it really that funny but while on set, I did figure out that Hell's Kitchen was not the commonly known cooking competition broadcast on Fox but an Indie short film. No worries, it was still a great experience. Profanity on set was anything but controlled, filtered or held back on any level between the director and the crew, the food was pretty...mm, not great, and I was paired up with an interesting character...but seriously, it was all good fun haha. Anyways, I will officially be credited on IMDB, which I'm very excited about and after that, I'll be able to list all my work on it (hopefully, I will have a lot to fill it with ;p). And, who knows, if the Hell's Kitchen liked me enough, they might ask me to come in for a featured part!

As for the audition for the two music videos and the Law and Order gig, I'm still waiting to hear back. Unfortunately, what I've found is that no news, is bad news. I've got my fingers crossed. 

More updates to come
Mucho <3

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Story #55: Chin up, shoulders back, walk proud

 Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great. - Mark Twain
~ Thanks to Famous Quotes and Quotations

I know I'm not alone in this...there are times when you feel like you just hit a wall. You try to break it down, but it doesn't even dent or crack. You try to climb over it, but you can't get a grip to even take your step off the ground. You try to walk around, but the wall doesn't seem to have an end. The longer you wait, the wider it gets. The wider it gets, the more discouraged you become...the smaller you feel...the higher the wall seems. It's a never ending cycle that takes you down. The external pressures, the people around you, the negative energy fed from the biggest critic of them all...yourself.
You can't let the words of others hold you back because no one knows your true strength the way you do. Don't let self-doubt hold you back, because in life, no matter how hard you try, no matter how many times you put the past on rerun, you can't go back. Don't let your fears hold you back. Take it from the words of the most influential people in history, Nelson Mandela:
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
And going back to Story #38: Fall Forward. Be a first hand witness to yourself, you can accomplish anything. A little cheesy, right? You can accomplish anything that you set your mind on? And we believe it to be cheesy because, seriously...you can be and do anything...as long as you set your mind on it? Surprisingly, the answer is yes. Be honest with your heart and logical with your mind and you will find that what you truly desire and yearn for, you can achieve. So which ever path you decide to walk down, no matter what life throws at you, and no matter how many times you stumble, chin up, shoulders back, and walk proud. Don't let others or your self doubts belittle your ambitions.

So what's up with all these lengthy posts? Something, someone, somewhere has put it in my heart to write down all these thoughts that I have, myself, been contemplating on. Moving forward to the updates on when my life meets reality...I've been in this acting and modeling industry for almost 5 months and although I have a long, long, long way to go, I have accomplished a lot. I have been featured in films and tv shows. I have played a principal role in a print ad. I have all three SAG waivers needed to be eligible to join SAG. I am an AFTRA member. And I officially going to be a part of the IMDB search after I finish working tomorrow on Hell's Kitchen! :)

Outside of that, this Saturday, the young adults and the married couples of GCC are competing in a softball tournament! I can't wait! :)

More updates to come!
Mucho <3

Monday, August 22, 2011

Story #54: ღ Rejoice ღ

re·joice
[ri-jois] verb, -joiced, -joic·ing.
verb (used without object)
1. to be glad; take delight (often followed by in ): to rejoice in another's happiness.
~ Thanks to dictionary.com

Under my fbook status: Feeling great after finding myself in a new place to worship God, meeting new amazing people and being able to play softball incorporating these two joyous aspects. Life is good in so many ways. Be thankful

Before reading on, just imagine one of those really motivational speakers with a bold voice that can move the audience...and some patriotic or moving song playing in the background, like in the movies. Better yet, play one of those songs while reading it in your best motivational speech voices :)

In life there is so much we can complain about, there is so much greed to fulfill, there is so much negativity that we can express. The grumble from frustration of sitting in traffic, the intense anger of a bad day at work, the pulling-out-your-hair feeling caused by kids breaking something precious and the sigh of annoyance from stepping on a piece of gum; the heart wrenching agony of losing a loved one, the pain of physical abuse, the darkened emptiness of feeling alone in this world and the pent up disgruntlement caused by the unfairness we experience. To much disbelief...it is our choice to take that path. It is our choice to live in and dwell on the "unhappiness" life has thrown at us. Is it really that much more beneficial to walk down that path and choose negativity over happiness?

To find happiness is "to be glad; take delight". When reading diary entries of those who experienced the inhumane tortures of the Holocaust camps, yes there was sadness, there were unbearable truths that seem so unrighteous and unethical that it becomes unimaginable to the comparable life of our own BUT, believe it or not, there was happiness felt through those times. We are creatures of contradiction. We avoid hurt, yet we hurt. We want to do right, yet we bend the rules as we see fits. We complain, yet we yearn to find happiness. It's impossible to find happiness if you are complaining. It's through these situations, through these trials where we find, if not, true happiness, that at least, relative happiness. There is so much in our lives that we take for granted. Just because we don't live the life with all the luxuries we can imagine, we are dissatisfied. We work that extra hour longer to get that raise so that we can buy that new item. But when we finally get it, we want to work another extra hour so we can get that other new item. Where does it end?

When we are told, "eat all your food, think about the starving children in  ___." The first rebellious thought that comes to mind is, "how would me eating all my food and not even enjoying it, help those starving in the third world countries?" It makes no sense. Seriously, I'm scarfing down food, my stomach about to explode...how is that going to feed the hunger? Me indulging myself in what others don't have, is that wrong in itself? But imagine, the life of Jewish people were starving during the  Holocaust, where people in third world countries are haven't eaten anything in days, they desperately scrounge for food, picking up crumbs out of the rubble and being blessed if they find any amount of food that could feed a rat. They are happy, they are grateful, they rejoice in the kindness of the world or in my case, God, that little piece of food enabled them to live one more day, even if it was a day of suffering. Thinking about it this way, we should appreciate the food we are given and even enjoy it because we are given the opportunity to fill our stomach with nutrients and yummy goodness. We should not take for granted what others lack. This doesn't mean we should strive to reach new unfounded grounds, but it means that while striving for more, we should be grateful for what we do have. That looking from the bareness of life, we have much to offer and much to be thankful for.

Happiness is based on relative aspects, and when it comes down to it, when you strip all that life has offered you, ask yourself, are you happy? Just like we have the choice to be happy or to be ungrateful, we decide to say "what if I did this...I could have won, I could have made this much more money, I could have..."...could have what?? ...You could have nothing. How about deciding to use these "what if's" game and shining light on it in a way that brings more light to your life. What if you were in a situation where you couldn't even afford to play sports, where the government wouldn't even allow you to play the games you wanted to play? To much misfortune, that is the case for many and look what message they have to share... Baseball in Uganda. They don't want our pity or sadness, they want our encouragement. They are grateful for they have. If you "count your blessings", and think about the "what if's" in a way that shows your life situation has so much more to offer than you make it out to, shouldn't you be happy? Life is about making the most of what you have. Using all struggles and set backs to your advantage. And taking advantage of the fortunes that you have come across. To be grateful to have a body that gives you life, to have people by your side, to know that you are not alone in the world experiencing what you are going through and to know that no matter what happens, when you hit rock bottom, the only direction you can go is up. And yes...again, and again I say, through the darkest of clouds, there will always be sunshine. And realize, you are living life through good and bad, that just because sadness or anger has struck, doesn't mean that life will stop for you...so you might as well make the most of what you've got, find a ways to look at your situation with full optimism and rise above it. More chances than not, there is always something you can take away from every situation, there is always something you can learn and there is always, some way, that you are able to benefit from whatever you go through. "Life isn't just about how you survive the storm, but how you dance in the rain."

What ever my life is throwing at me, I am grateful for my loving family, the friends by my side, all of you who read my blog (and hopefully find some enjoyment out of it), and most of all, my Creator.

The ability to see, walk, hear, speak, breathe, feel...live...

...I am thankful ღ

Now for a quick update on acting/modeling. Today I was offered to go in for an interview for a featured, maybe principal role in Law and Order; but, I decided to turn it down. I would have to wear panties and pasties, portraying a girl in a sex video. I did take into consideration that this would be on TV protecting me from it being too racy, and that it would be good pay AND I would have a larger role in the show, but I would still probably feel uncomfortable being portrayed as a girl in a sex video. Not too worry, I got another call and they are going to submit my picture to Law and Order SVU for a different role. Cross your finger, wish me luck and pray for me! :)

More updates to come!
Mucho <3

Friday, August 19, 2011

Story #53: Travels

It is solved by walking. - St. Augustine 
~ Thanks to itravelnet.com

Hello all!!

The lack of updates is due to the lack of exciting news. I didn't want to bore you with the same old stories.

I know it's not good to sleep late, but sometimes you just can't. You find yourself laying there, swamped by worries, stresses and feelings and thoughts that act as caffeine, keeping you up. Well, I've got the cure (it works for me at least). I find that the best way to clear your mind of negative thoughts, be yourself and to even find comfort in your tears to a point where you don't feel alone anymore is a 3am walk. When your in the city, it's a feeling of being on top of the world. Where time is moving, but everything else has stopped and you're finally able to remove your mask and come out of your shell. It is when all the lies and scrutiny fall into deep sleep and the truth and clarity awakens. You can feel the city shutting it's eyes, the hectic pace decelerating and the breathe slowing to a point where you can finally immerse yourself into the scenery around you and the life that you play a part in. 3am walks...cheapest and most effective stress reliever.

Although I do not have any new news about work, I do have exciting new that I want to share...I am planning to go to Korea next April!! I really hope all my plans are able to go through. The last time I went I loved it there -- I loved the food, the culture, the people...everything. When the time of departure nears, I will send more updates (I know it's far away, but I'm so excited!). You know what the best thing would be? If I could find work there! I will have to do some job searching and find connections in Korea. This also means that I am going actually try to learn Korean. :)

Another thing is that I admit to swaying far off from being healthy. I started eating a lot of junk food, going to bed past 4am...yea...so today I start anew. Wish me luck!

More updates are SURE to come!
Mucho <3

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Story #52: Short and sweet

short and sweet (and to the point)
very brief; shorter than anticipated (and well focused)
~Thanks to 
IdiomDictionary.com


I was originally going to post an entry after I got an update on Saturday's shoot, but I was so excited after working on The Onion News Network that I had to share a little bit of my happiness. I don't think I can go into too much detail until after it airs, but I will say that I portrayed a sorority girl in the middle of Fall/Winter season. So yea, everyone was sweating on set in our thick wool sweatshirts. However, our moods were not dampened because the hilarious "stunts" we pulled off were hilarious. I don't know if it's fortunate or not, but I was picked to be a featured girl where I was a wet "sweatshirt" contestant. At least the water cooled me off! Anyways, I might have sacrificed working on Royal Pains  today, but my experience on The Onion News Network was well worth it. Note: As much fun as it was being on set...I wouldn't mind if you didn't watch it hahaha. :P

More updates to come
Mucho <3 

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Story #51: Kdramas, early call times and idiots

"Do not argue with an idiot. He will drag you down to his level and beat you with experience."
~ Thanks to Onelinerzdotnet

Just finished the Kdrama, Greatest Love a couple days ago. 49 Days touched me a little more but there was still much you could take away from Greatest Love. One of the greatest aspects in life that creates much chaos within relationships is miscommunication and misunderstanding. Constantly throughout the kdrama, we witness one side of the relationship withholding information from the other or where side A walks half-way into the scene, giving them only half the picture to draw assumptions from. These two main reasons [as well as many others] contribute to the strains within a relationship. If you allow yourself to be open to kdramas, you will see that they hold much more meaning than just sickness, cancer, love triangles and death. In the end, through the heartaches and illnesses, there is deeper happiness. There were realizations; there were lessons learned. -- Basically, don't judge my love for kdramasl!! jkjk  :)

So I didn't get my two days of work on The 2-2 like I hoped, but I did work today. The food was definitely not as good as Royal Pains or White Collar and it was not as fun, but it was alright. I saw old friends and made friends, AND due to a "small" fire I got to go home early, hahaha of all things to happen! But everything was fine and it wasn't a big, big fire. Unfortunately I didn't find out until too late that it was a 6:30am call time. This meant that I had to take the earliest train, which left at 3:59am...I left my home at 3:15am to drive and walk there. Yea, I didn't get to sleep the night before. However, there is a deeper reason to why I wasn't able to sleep other than that I was anxious about missing the train. For the past two months or so I have been having trouble with food. I'm really starting to think it's acid reflux disease. I won't go into details online right now, but it's really starting to cause problems for me. I think it might be time to visit the doctor. :(  That wasn't the worst part of the day, the worst part of the day was trying to deal with arrogant idiots. I'm not in the mindset to go in-depth, but arrogant people who not only think highly of themselves but act as if they are above others need to stay out of my life. le sigh

Anyways, back to work, I am working tomorrow on The Onion News Network:
In March 2007, The Onion launched The Onion News Network, a daily web video broadcast that had been in production since mid-2006, with a story about an illegal immigrant taking an executive's $800,000-a-year job for $600,000 a year. The Onion has reportedly invested about $1 million in the production and has hired 15 new staffers to focus on the production of this video broadcast.[29] Carol Kolb, former Editor-in-Chief of The Onion is the ONN's head writer; and Will Graham is the showrunner and Executive Producer. On February 3, 2009, The Onion launched a spin-off of the ONN, the Onion Sports Network.

I was a little upset because an hour after I accepted this job, Grant Wilfley called me to ask if I was free to work on Royal Pains!! arggg!! What can you do? If all goes well tomorrow, then it will all be worth it.  At least I'm working. :)

More news, I'm going to be working this Saturday on an untitled film (I'll give you more info on Friday when I receive it) AND it will be for my third SAG waiver! After Saturday, I will be eligible to join SAG! I don't think I will be joining really soon, but it's 1) nice to be paid union and 2) nice to have all 3 out of 3 waivers. Now I will have the full ability to decide whether or not I want to join SAG right now or not.

Well, time to catch up on some sleep (yay for late call times!). More updates are sure to come!
Mucho <3

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Story #50: Creeper!!

Have you ever tried to secretly and very discretely, yet a little creepily take a picture of something that you weren't supposed to? You hold the camera down low, a little off to the side of your actual object of interest, try to focus the camera, and time it perfectly so that when your camera/phone actually captures the image, you have the object in focus? Does it sound a little too detailed almost as if I've done it before...yea, I have. Point being, these questions come with a story. I was on the train today sitting in a 4-seater across from my brother and a man sitting on the other side of the pathway adjacent to me and guess what...he was doing just that! At first I was staring at him fiddling with his phone because I was just intrigued at what he was trying to do. His phone was a little on an angle towards my brother, it was down low and he was poking around at the phone with his finger...then he pointed the phone at me, then away and back at me. That's when he realized I was staring at him and put it down carefully to make sure he was able to keep it on camera mode. When I went back to surfing the web and playing games on my phone, I kept glancing back once in a while through the corner of my eye, and literally seconds later his phone was back up! This happened about 3 times...he finally put his phone down normally with the screen facing up to serve a purpose of showing me that he gave up when I stared in his direction (out the window) for long while. Too paranoid to fall asleep normally, I turned my back to him and tried to angle the myself in the most comfortable way against the railing. Apparently creeper didn't finish there, my brother said that he tried it again...assuming he had to be after some goods, the next best thing to my face were my cheeks...from behind. So my brother put his foot up behind me to protect me. CREEPER! Seriously, it's not like I'm famous or anything, therefore he's being a pervert, and since I look like I'm 16 and he's like 40, he can technically be seen as a pedophile! EW!

Moving on, for the past two days (and tomorrow), I have been working on the Phil Spector film. This [currently] untitled film is a "drama centered on the relationship between Phil Spector and defense attorney Linda Kenney Baden while the music business legend was on trial for the murder of Lana Clarkson." The cast for this low-budget tv-movie is Al Pacino as Phil Spector, Helen Mirren as Linda Kenney Baden, Jeffrey Tambor, Martin Jarvis, David Aaron Baker, Jack Wallace, Yoloda Ross, Kate Blumberg, Bob Jennings, Vernon Campbell, Mary B. McCann, Cynthia Silver, John Pirruccello, Philip Martin and Don Gomez (IMDB). For more in depth background on this court case: http://articles.cnn.com/2009-03-26/justice/spector.trial_1_lana-clarkson-phil-spector-jurors?_s=PM:CRIME

The 2-2 show I was going to work on next week decreased the number of people they needed to work with. So, unfortunately, I will not be working on it. Gotta look for more work now...

Hopefully more updates on new work for next week to come!
Mucho <3

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Story #49: Destination TBD

'Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?'
'That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,' said the Cat.
'I don't much care where --' said Alice.
'Then it doesn't matter which way you go,' said the Cat.
'--so long as I get somewhere,' Alice added as an explanation.
Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland

It's been a while, a long while since my last post. But I don't come empty handed, I have updates. :)
This past Saturday I worked on a non paying political film where I met a fellow UPenn alum! It was great being able to have that in common with someone on set. Rehashing great memories of our UPenn experiences and gossiping about the classes and athletic faculty brings a sense of school pride. On Sunday, I had the pleasure of spending time with Sigmas and a good friend in NY (note to friend: I hope you are enjoying my gift to you!)  Today I had an audition for a print. If I get it, the shoot date will be on Monday (wish me luck!). Tomorrow I will be working on an HBO film, Phil Spector. The scene will take place in a courthouse. And if all goes well on Spector, they may ask me to work on Thursday and maybe even Friday. Next Tuesday and Wednesday I will be working on a CBS show, The 2-2, formally known as Rookies. I have yet to find out what I will be doing, but I'm excited!!

Finally, the most exciting news of the day, I am officially an Aftra member!! I signed up and everything! :)  
I may not know where I want to end up or where my final destination lies, but I am certainly on a road to somewhere.

More updates to come. Be sure to comment and follow (on the right column...you don't need a blog to follow!)
Mucho <3